The Two Way Street

I’ve been a believer for quite a while now, not that time is a major factor in the Kingdom of Light.  I can remember the moment I knew there was a Father, Son and Spirit that were seeking me out. My first thoughts were: ‘why me? I don’t deserve You.’  I thank God every day for placing people in my life, those that have come and gone, who accurately reflected the True Father heart of God. It’s only on the other side of eternity that these men and women will understand the impact they had in my life.

At some point during my transition from adolescence to adulthood (19 years old technically made me an adult, even if my actions didn’t qualify me) an idea was birthed in me that I wasn’t good enough. This is a thought that crosses the minds of millions of people, daily. And to be honest it takes a cognizant effort to fight back  against those thought processes…’taking every thought captive…’. But either way my mind was convinced I was unworthy; of what exactly, even I didn’t know at the time. But something deep in me was experiencing this. And then all of a sudden my eyes were opened…and open up a little bit more everyday.

In 2006 I became aware of all that Christ did for me. I also gained access to this newly made relationship, but to the Father it was more of a reuniting. A path was opened to His heart once again. Fast forward to the present and this line of communication is still wide open and the relationship is ever blossoming. This is where I feel an importance in these words:  Your relationship with God is real. It is more real than anything you have ever experienced.  When I say ‘real’ what I mean is that in every single way you can imagine the Father longs for you. He desperately and ferociously seeks your heart. And that, my friends, is something that will wreck your heart if you get a revelation of it. And I pray we all do.  I highly recommend listening to a podcast by Jonathan David and Melissa Helser called ‘Abbas Furious Love part 1-3’…but specifically part 1. It speaks so eloquently about this in a way I just can’t communicate. You can listen to it hear: https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/jonathan-david-melissa-helser/id370241266?mt=2&i=1000326143357

I entitled this blog ‘The Two Way Street’ but if I could expound on that I would have named it ‘The Two Way Street that leads to an authentic life with God’. I believe Abba speaks.  I believe He is speaking right now, as I am typing this. I believe this because I have experienced Him on many occasions.  I pray none of this sounds cliche, because hand to my heart I am amped up about this. So imagine your relationship with God as a Street. One way: God is speaking. But what about the other way?  What are you saying? What are you praying?  What are you thinking?

I had a sweet moment in Gods presence recently and I began asking Him questions about a decision I needed to make. As an impatient man I was expecting an immediate response with a sign in the heavens. But all I got was silence. The only thing I knew to do (by the prompting of Holy Spirit) was to be patient and wait silently. So I waited. I was in bed, in the pitch black darkness of the room. And like a light rain I began to hear Him speaking to me, His words falling in my spirit.  He responded in a way that was so refreshing. One of the biggest things I remember was the feeling of amazement that God would stoop down to my ear and whisper something to me…all because I am his Son and he loves me and loves to see my heart satisfied.

I used this example because it was so simple. I wasn’t in a ‘church’ setting. I wasn’t even in a posture to receive, I just started talking to Papa and He responded. I realize that a lot of our culture in this technological age likes two things:  instantaneous results and the sensationalism of life. There are times where these things are great, but in my limited experience I have not discovered them to be true in the Kingdom.

God enjoys the process. (Any 76ers fans out there? Come on Joel Embiid!) What Father wants to watch his child grow and become an adult instantly?  I know I absolutely adore watching my son learn something new…like a new word or how to climb the stairs or how to say ‘I love you my daddy’. These processes are precious and the journey is what is of value.  God is in the process, find Him and talk to Him about it.

And briefly on sensationalism: we must guard our hearts. Our God is all creative and boundlessly exciting. But he is also perfectly practical and realistic. I deal with this regularly in the way that I pray, the things I expect to see happen ‘in His presence’ and even in the way He performs his miracles. I’m talking about this because I used to have false expectations of how God might move in a situation…or more importantly in my life. It set me up to be disappointed…regularly. I’ve found that the Father doesn’t always need the spotlight to make a real impact. I’ve had more God-inspired and god-timed conversations in my life than I can recall, but I can count on one hand how many times they came in front of a crowd of people.  And to me, this is so liberating. Thanks to Jesus, we no longer have to be a super religious priest to enter the Holy of Holies in the temple to experience Him…Jesus enables our lives to be lived in the Most Holy. So that means at any moment, any interruption in the day or any quiet time we can chat with our Papa. And He responds…

Be encouraged my friends and really begin to reflect on your communication with God. This is a conversation that is about to explode in the church..and I am so stoked to hear the results of His goodness.